Oops, I did it again!

I became a bad blogger.
It happens, I guess. Every blog I've used has had its low-swinging moments. It happened to me with Xanga, on Myspace, and especially here on Blogger. In fact, I've a blog I specifically block out so other people won't find it because it became so bad.
I wonder why this happens. Why do I go through cycles of blogging? My best blogging usually comes in the summer, or at moments of extreme free time or pressure, but why do I eventually put out "Meh" blogs? Does this happen to anyone else other than me?
Maybe my blogging is actually fairly normal and typical, it just happens to fail some of my standards some of the time. I don't really know.
Matthew Irvine (IT guy for FBC Belton) told me some woman somewhere makes $70k a month off of her blog. She puts up Google Ads and make about $1 each time some one clicks on an ad, and brings home 5 figures a month. Her husband quit his job because she was making so much money. I don't know if I'll ever have that compelling of content to draw in readers that regularly.
What I do know, however, is that I'll keep blogging. I'll keep writing, I'll keep thinking. I'll keep finding ways to re-invent myself as a blogger. So as I journey out into the void of searching for a better me to blog about, I'll leave you with a quote from my weekend.

"Those vows were pretty serious. Marriage seems like a pretty legit deal, I'm not sure if it's for me. I think I'll just have monogamous sex for the rest of my life."
--me

There's a breeze blowin' through, here tonight

I think those are the right words. Oh well.

A lot of things have been going on lately. I think most of blogs have been rushed through to the end so I can feel some sense of accomplishment for posting a new blog. I guess it's just that time of year again, when time is too short, and the schedule is too full. I don't know.
I finalized my schedule for the fall today, for the last time. I'm taking 14 hours, Psychology of Leadership (3 hrs), Abnormal Psychology (3 hrs), Christian Counseling in a Church Setting (3 hrs), Intermediate Greek I (the first semester, which is 4 hrs), and the Honors Seminar (1 hr). I don't think it'll be too much, especially since I'm on the decline with responsibility and on-campus involvement.
I won't be doing SGA (heartbreaking, really), I don't have any plans on coming back as an RA, so far. I will be involved with Student Foundation and searchCRU, which each take only about 1 to 2 days a month, so I should be good. And of course, I'll still be interning at FBC Belton. Hopefully, with a bit of a raise this time around.
Umm, still don't have a place to live in the fall, either. I've had a few different offers for the summer, but I haven't really investigated any of them to the furthest extent. Maybe I'll get to that this week.
I'm also planning on taking Spanish at TC this summer. Hopefully that'll work out for me and I can work on my minor. Hopefully.
Encouraging chat with KB today. It was good, but I haven't showered since Saturday night, so I do not smell good. I do not smell good.

Okay. This has been a bit of a ramble, but I just needed to unload a few things off of my plate. I hope all is well with you and yours.
Later Days Y'all

Immanuel, God With Us

It's been a while since I posted a blog. I thought about posting and tried to post a few days ago, but all that ended up coming out was, well, pretty much crap. In an attempt to resurrect this habit, I'm coming to you again, live from my office at First Baptist Church of Belton. I like typing that out.

Since the last time I blogged, I have realized (actually I just now learned this) that I need an atmosphere of peace and escape in order to successfully blog. I was reflecting over some of my better and more notorious posts on my first blog(s) and found that I used to be extremely good at blogging. It didn't matter when or where I was, whenever I sat down at a computer I could easily compose a blog in a few matters. Now, I know there is a bit of variation to what a blog really is. I mean, if you're Glynis Akins, a blog is a jumbled mix of lyrics to songs. If you're Daniel Rowe, it's a daily update from YouTube. And that's okay, I guess. I mean, I don't really think there's a perfect blog or a perfect way to blog, and I know that this blog isn't without it's blemishes. The point I'm trying to make is really, I miss blogging, and being able to blog.
I'm starting a new paragraph just to detail that further. I miss blogging my life and thoughts with people who cared and would read and share. I also miss reading the about the lives and thoughts of other people, and knowing them so well I couldn't help but care about them. And of course, I miss being able to silence myself away from everything else and give singular devotion, commitment, and attention to waxing poetic. Or, waxing foolishness. Or just plain waxing.

A new semester is less than 24 hours away. For some, however, I wouldn't be surprised that Spring 08 came a day or two early and you've already started. This semester I'm taking 14 hours -- Biblical Backgrounds (3), Brit Lit II (3), Later Pauline Epistles (3), Elementary Greek II (4), and Conditioning (1). Last semester, as you may have read, I pretty much hated my classes. The only one I really honestly enjoyed was...well...really, probably Greek. And even then, I have a bit of a disagreement with taking Greek and making it so difficult. But then, I really don't feel like opening the can of worms that topic could be. Furthermore, I've digressed.
Last semester I hated class. I didn't enjoy or like a one of them, save the Greek mind you, but this semester I'm...marginally more interested in class. Mainly, I'm curious to see what awaits for me in my biblical studies class The Later Pauline Epistles. I really enjoy Paul's letters, and to be honest, I freaking love Paul just in general, so I'm excited and anxious to see what good and glorious things I can learn from taking this class. I favor more the New Testament than the OT, and in the NT I am extremely in love with books like Ephesians, the Corinthians and Thessalonians, and Galatians and Romans. So, we shall see. Yes indeed, we shall see.
Well, I must be off to go eat lunch.
Ta Ta

He's a Tramp, but they love him

I think it's safe to say I have not very much that is blog-worthy.
For that, I am going on a sa-blog-ical; a sabbatical from blogging. I am waiting until I have good thoughts to blog, then I will bring them here instead of crap about crap.
Thanks, see you around.

'Cause suicide is painless, it brings on many changes

Lately, I've struggled with doing things for me. I want to do something for some one else, so I jump into it. Forgive me, this isn't really going to be a logical or coherent thought, and it may come across rather unpolished. So for now, just accept that I need to start re-committing things back to myself.

I've been having odd dreams lately. I'll pick on Friday night. I dreamt I was going back to Romania. It was amazing. I got to see all the loved ones I have in Bucharest, and I had the whole summer ahead of me.
It reminds me of a crazy dream that I have that, I guess, I'll let out into the open. I would love the opportunity to go to Romania and teach. I would love to spend a summer in Romania, learning the language, loving the people, and edifying the body. Before I left for Romania I had this crazy idea that I could do just that next summer. The last night there Soterius (pastor of AlfaOmega) asked me if my dad (who he found out was a professor) would be interested in coming to Romania to teach basic bible classes in a university type setting. I can't exactly speak for my dad, although we did talk about this and he wasn't opposed to the idea, however I know that if that opportunity was presented to me I would have my bags packed the next day.
So, there it is. God, I would love to go to Romania and teach about You. If You want this too, make it happen. I love you.

I've also had a multitude of different things happening in the past few days/weeks. As my previous post (two, actually...) would indicate, I am now working at FBC Belton. I'm interning with Jason Goings, the Assistant Pastor and College and Missions Minister. Today was my first day. It was a crazy long one, I spent four hours trying to acclimated to the atmosphere of FBC Belton, but I'm starting to like it. When I was a youth I wanted to do youth ministry, now as a college student I'm getting to do college ministry from an intern's perspective, so maybe when I'm more grown than now I'll get to do adult ministry.
To be completely honest, I feel called and gifted into teaching and pastoral ministry. God has granted me an amazing mind that can think and learn and understand and teach, and a heart that desires to disciple the lost and the church, and I want to use those gifts for Him, for Christ's Body. I wish I could jump up and say college ministry is the passion of my heart, but honestly ministering to those around me, feeling and meeting their needs, and struggling to figure out how to persevere in Christ is really my passion. So, if along the way, I get to work with college students, it'll be okay.

Something else that has been flying around has been the issue/idea/topic of dating. More specifically, "pursuing a girl." If I had a quarter for every time I have heard a girl say to me this semester "I want a boy to pursue me...You're the boy, so pursue her...As the man in the relationship, it is the man's job to pursue the woman..." I once -- 10th grade, mind you -- had the bold notion of recording my thoughts on the art of pursuing girls, yet it never quite came to fruition. Por que no? I was too lazy. Last night, though, I put away some serious thought in this direction, and I ended up going a little deeper than what I'm ready for. Although, I haven't followed my thoughts out to their logical end yet, so maybe my MO is somewhere along the way of the biblical pursuit of a woman. I don't know. Just a thought. I can say this much, though, when I do figure out more of this, I'll be sure to post it here. For now, I'll just keep my thoughts to myself, and figure them out along the way.

And finally, I'm starting to discover that blogging is something very cathartic for me. I used to be in such a great habit of blogging constantly, however with the uprising of MySpace and the downfall of Xanga I fell out of the saddle. Today I discovered that Daniel Rowe makes a concerted effort to blog just about once a day and I was jealous. Even as I am typing, I'm realizing that blogging is a good way to purge troublesome thoughts from the soul, and write out my problems into words to grasp them more tangibly. He made the comment "I get paid to blog," and I suddenly realized the need I have for consistency and positive habits in my life. Maybe not patterns, but discipline. I have a strong need to fill a lackadaisical hole in my life with discipline, and I'd like to think that blogging could be one piece to what is missing.

Thank you